misplaced

moving from one place to another tires me, even if it is not physically exhausting. probably because my soul is so slow, it takes ages to get anywhere, whilst my body can be easily moved my mechanisms. i feel my soul coming back, returning to me. probably tonight. here’s to you, my soul, who quicken…

one song about riches (what cannot be taken away)

one of songs of experience (no reference to william blake here). one of the songs i really could not dig when i was, probably, having the experiences mentioned here. i still have them, of course. (translation of the lyrics below) I am rich – I own all that has ever happened to me.// The hours…

ash wednesday

Yet even now, says the LORD, return to me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning; rend your hearts and not your clothing. Return to the LORD, your God, for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love, and relents from punishing. (Joel 2:12-13) when i…

a letter

dear god, i am only a poet in a world of too many words. thank you for listening to my silences. faithfully yours, me Posted by Wordmobi

horseless apocalypse

the horsemen (2009). a film about a police inspector solving a series of murders thematically tied to the four horsemen of the apocalipse, only to find out that his own son is one of the said horsemen. it is a film about this horribly crippled world, and, in a sense, about what happens when people…

God the fletcher

Listen to me, all you in distant lands! Pay attention, you who are far away! The Lord called me before my birth; from within the womb he called me by name. He made my words of judgement as sharp as a sword. He has hidden me in the shadow of his hand. I am like…

moon

moon in my bed. and i must say again, either her or me. so…her, probaly. whatever is left of me, crawls in a miserable ball out of the reach of the moon, and listens to the little ginger kitten rioting in the corridor. after tomorrow, i will go to see my mother. if the roads…

into the sunset

šon saruna skaipā. piedalās trīs dažādu gada gājumu cilvēki. =================================== s.b.: man sāk nepaatikt politika un tiesības a.z. Kā priekšmets, vai kā mūsu valstī? 🙂 s.b.: tieši kā mūsu valstī a.z. Nu, tad jārīkojas, jāmeklē līdzīgi domājošie, jāformulē, kas nepatīk un kā to novērst un jāizmanto savas tiesības ietekmēt politiku s.b.: nu jā..bet tāpatās tas…

between

between christmas and the new year – in this dark and snowy season, in this season of long nights and brief days, i think of those people i have met. some of them will move on out of my life, and i of theirs, to continue our separate ways. with some of them i will…

something about christmas

there are plenty of things to dislike about the season, and one thing that makes it indispensable. the endless hurry and the worries, and consumerism, and the darkness, and the hypocritical postures of the powers that be, the obligatory love and being nice just because it is traditional- all that galls the spirit and the…

white cat, paperwork, paranoia and total non-entity business

my life currently has entered the nervous breakdown stage. i feel cornered. i have no space to be me. people (with those good intentions at heart and the usual demagogy) make decisions for me, and get offended when i consider them invasions of my privacy and my personal space. i feel i have lost the remnants of faith that…

spirit

to be spoken to by the spirit of god. to listen with the ears of the spirit. god extends his arms to embrace all living things. within those arms there is life in full measure- more than a soul expects and can take. whatever is unexpected and longed for- the spirit of god is. a…

linearity and transparence

was watching the russian film ‘туман’ (mist) some days ago. the plot is simple – a unit of recruits of the modern russian army takes a shortcut through a misty swamp to appear in 1942 and face the assault of germans on russia. most of the troops are killed in fighting, and the remnant returns…

sprouts

just think of it – the coming of jesus will sprout the graveyards with those risen. and there will be more of them than the living at the time. awesome, that.

those feelings

temptation is somewhat connected to desire. eliminate desire and expectation, and the chances of temptation will significantly decrease. undo the instinct to compare and judge, and there will be less soil for it to take root. but nothing will protect you from temptation at all times and in all forms, because this is necessary for…

comparison

just thought i’d compare things over years.. look at it here – and below. Advanced Global Personality Test Results

change

when jesus does something, he does it fully. at that wedding in cana, he changes water into wine, and not any wine, but the best there is. and then there’s this conversation. mary and jesus, and the person lacks something essential for joy. in time or out of time, jesus does miracles for those that…

exist

contrary to death or whatever, i exist. contrary to numbness, i feel. contrary to wind, i stand. why all this? because contrariness sometimes does one good.

positive

love is that state where borders become very important. the moment where my borders and your borders are so close that any movement is a trespass left unpunished by choice. in this drifting world, love becomes the water and the anchor, a catwalk between two incongruous vehicles, a compass to where the important things are.

exile

exile is the place heart learns burning for home; it is a place heart learns trust and faith in returning. exile is what creates the place of return, sanctifies it and makes it worthy. without a little bit of exile, heart will not value the gift of home. Posted by Wordmobi

relationships

the past makes us tense, the present – confuses us; the future frightens us. and our lives slip away in that terrible moment in-between. only jesus remains.

too (much)

we blame people too much. the parents’ faults are blamed on children, the faults of children- on their parents. and one’s own faults on those closest as only they will stay with us, no matter what. wouldn’t it be nice, to look at the world with the eyes of god, full of compassion and promise…

no

there are no ordinary moments. there is no starting, no stopping. only being. it is the journey that brings us satisfaction, not the goal.